Let me start by saying this, "In the end it will not matter how much you have".
Why such a dark start you ask, try starting your life over after a hurricane like Gustav destroys everything. I live in baton rouge, la where the power was out for days, the food supplies lines were cut, and some people committed suicide cause the pressure was so great. During these hard times i could not think of anything but my life and my sanity. Even though I have my life, I sometime question my sanity cause trying to recover is even harder. I feel dead cause this is not living when you are living paycheck to paycheck and one small thing like a hurricane blow you up out the water.
I been trying to pray to God but i don't know if he hears me cause i know i have not been a saint or and thing related to good so i don't know. I hope he does hear me cause i don't won't to die. I feel like i am headed for self destruction cause it feel like its all gone wrong. Its funny cause it's the truth. Some people will say "Don't worry about it cause everything will be alright". And I will say "Lets trade place".
This 2008 year has been the year that i have been bitten, burned and slapped by life. To be honest i didn't think being on your own was so hard. I understand why people live on the streets cause no one is there for you when you need them the most. If you are reading this then i want you to help somebody besides yourself cause you might need help one day.
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